Seeing in a different light ...

Rainbow Bokeh and a Beam ........ !!!
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In the past 48 hours, I have been face-to-face with 2 women in my life for the purposes of amends and healing.

The first was my ex, the 2nd my mother.

The content of these interactions is not nearly as significant as the substance of the space that these interactions were held. In each, there were not the usual barriers: defensive walls, vague or hidden agendas or unwillingness. Instead, there was intimacy, honesty and spaciousness. Each of us showed up to the best of our ability and capacity. There were not any expectations and therefore, there were not any disappointments.

For me, the lens through which I viewed each of these women was quite clear, free of historical debris and fearful fuzziness. I felt my open-heartedness and my softness. I felt receptive. I felt grateful for the timing and for being ready and steady.

My sponsor says these are "God moments". My teacher Jason would say: " I am looking at them with my eyes, which are Buddha's eyes."

I am not under any delusion that any of us women have reached "pedestal status" or that there are not very true aspects of  our individual behaviors which have been hurtful or painful. I am aware that for me,   my willingness to be present and to see each of  us in a light which can shine on both our God-qualities and our  human qualities is what is most illuminating. I get to see them for exactly who they are and exactly who I am in relationship to them. And, at least for this go-round, not wanting to change them in any way.

Seeing in a different light is about being and feeling more real. And more in Reality.

What a miraculous blessing for us all.